Missing Him...

The Mariah Carey Christmas album is a long standing tradition in the London home. Ever since I was a child I knew these songs by heart. I always thought of this song as a tragic romantic love song. But when listening to it again the other day I realized that it may not be just romantic... it can be about anyone you love. And so, this year it's taken on a whole other meaning.

"The fire is burning
The room's all aglow
Outside the December wind blows
Away in the distance the carolers sing in the snow
Everybody's laughing
The world is celebrating
And everyone's so happy
Except for me tonight

Because I miss you
Most at Christmas time
And I can't get you
Get you off my mind
Every other season comes along
And I'm all right
But then I miss you, most at Christmas time

I gaze out the window
This cold winter's night
At all of the twinkling lights
Alone in the darkness
Remembering when you were mine
Everybody's smiling
The whole world is rejoicing
And everyone's embracing
Except for you and I

Baby I miss you
Most at Christmas time
And I can't get you
Get you off my mind
Every other season comes along
And I'm all right
But then I miss you, most at Christmas time

In the springtime those memories start to fade
With the April rain
Through the summer days
Till autumn's leaves are gone
I get by without you
Till the snow begins to fall

And then I miss you
Most at Christmas time
And I can't get you
Get you off my mind
Every other season comes along
And I'm all right...
But then I miss you, most at Christmas time"

I can't believe it's been nearly a year. Sometimes it seems so long and others it seems like the hours of uncertainty were just yesterday. Either way, I miss him. And I think I'll always miss him, and my other dear angels the very most at Christmas time.